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your (very) overdue post is here!
As usual I gave that night worth of conversation alot of thought
and i wanna tell you that while you're busying yourself with fyp, please take time off for yourself.
we can choose who to spend our time with, and its often with friends, boyfriend/girlfriend, family but seldom with ourself.
but more than anything, i hope you can find the balance within yourself.
i will always remember the first few months with loverboy as the craziest days of my life to date.
he opened a brand new world i've never seen, a world that i never thought existed.
and for once i would do anything to be in that world with him.
i went to the extreme. crossing border, cruising at 240 (still awesome!) breaking curfew just to name some.
but then i realise that if i have to keep up with that, then leonie will be gone.
because deep down i'm still a boring, slightly geeky, very predictable person.
i still like to un-occupy myself on weekends, to take hours reading saturday's newspaper with my coffee, to do boring things like homeworks at night, to spend hours on the piano or listening to the stereo.
and while i was trying to figure the whole thing out, that boy of mine told me it was all about balance.
that was his answer. so simple, so easy to what i thought was so complicated and so confusing.
like how i am(according to him), good and bad at the same time, crazy and boring at the same time.it's just about striking a balance
it's not about embracing one and despising the other, it's about having the best of both worlds.
and after that we start doing boring things and still get the kick from just being around each other. watching the planes (his dream!), or camping in bookshops (my favourite kill-time activity) or even people watching with mac's strawberry milkshake on hand.
sometimes it will take another person to help you figure all this out, sometimes it will have to be you yourself.
i dont want you to lose yourself, or to be someone else not yourself. somewhere in between, there's got to be a balance.
think about it.
take random chapters of coelho and reread it again.
and know that i have faith in you.
love,
cong